There is a time for everything, and a season for every activity under the heavens. Ecclesiastes 3:1 (NIV)
I’ve always had this dream in my heart of having a career that would allow me to work from home and the flexibility to travel, but never thought it was possible. It was always a “wouldn’t that be nice?” kind of dream, like being a millionaire. It wasn’t until I began my serious walk with God that this dream of mine felt possible, despite my circumstances.
My early success selling bags for Thirty-One led me to believe that the way to attain my dream was by growing my business and I worked tirelessly to make it happen.
A Season of Quiet
A man’s heart plans his way, but the Lord directs his steps. Proverbs 16:9 (NKJV)
Unfortunately, no matter how hard I tried I struggled to maintain my sales quota and it became clear that growth in my business was not part of God’s plan for me. It took me over a year to realize that the reason He led me to that company was only to bring me closer to him and that it was time to move on. I finally became inactive in November of 2015 and I was surprised to find that it brought me peace.
That peace did not last long though.
Soon after going inactive with Thirty-One, my work schedule changed which no longer allowed me to participate in church activities, like the worship team and MOPS. At the time, all of these changes were very frustrating and I couldn’t understand why the very things I knew God led me to were now being taken away.
For my thoughts are not your thoughts, neither are your ways my ways, as the heavens are higher than the earth, so are my ways higher than your ways and my thoughts than your thoughts. Isaiah 55:8-9 (NIV)
It took some time to realize that although God had led me to these things, I allowed them to become distractions in my life. I was so obsessed with making success happen in my business that my motives were all wrong. He was removing all of the distractions so that I could focus on studying and building my relationship with Him.
I see now that He has been preparing me for what is to come next in my life. He wanted to change my heart, to make sure that my motives were right. I still do not know what He has planned for me in the future but the dream in my heart has remained and I trust that when the time is right, He will reveal his plans for me.
A new season is coming.