The thief’s purpose is to steal and kill and destroy. My purpose is to give them a rich and satisfying life. John 10:10 NLT
Every morning I awake with the hope of a new day and a new opportunity to fulfill the purpose God has for me but it doesn’t take long before the attacks begin. Not physical attacks but the mental attacks that plague me on a daily basis.
It always starts out the same. I wake up in the morning with every intention of studying the Bible, praying, writing, enjoying time with my family but I can’t seem to stay focused.
First, the feelings of dread regarding a mounting to-do list followed by a recap of what I did wrong the day before or should of done but didn’t.
I have to do __________.
I should have done __________.
I shouldn’t have done __________.
These thoughts always lead to feelings of worry and dread followed by the guilt and shame that I have somehow failed God.
I can’t do this
I am a failure
How can I be called to do anything great for God if I can’t even do ___________.
Throughout the day these thoughts keep getting louder in my mind until I get to a point where all I want to do is scream and cry. My mind wears me out and then all I want to do is sleep.
We’ve all been guilty of turning to earthly things to seek refuge from these ugly thoughts and feelings. Some people turn to drugs and alcohol others turn to money or sex to help them get away from whatever pressure they are feeling and although I have been fortunate enough to not get caught up in those, I have turned to sleep, social media, coffee and food.
All of these have one thing in common, a false promise of escape from the constant pressures of this world. The enemy tells us these are what we need to help us feel better but what he is really doing is keeping us distracted so we turn away from what we really need and that is God.
Deep down I know these thoughts are lies from the enemy but the pressure is so great. The more I am learning about the enemy and his schemes and the closer I get to understanding God and my purpose, the stronger the attacks are getting and if I’m not careful I will allow them to keep me down and distracted.
Instead I should be seeking God and turning to His word for the help I need.
Those who live in the shelter of the Most High will find rest in the shadow of the Almighty.
This I declare about the Lord: He alone is my refuge, my place of safety; he is my God, and I trust him.
For he will rescue you from every trap and protect you from deadly disease.
He will cover you with his feathers. He will shelter you with his wings. His faithful promises are your armor and protection.
Do not be afraid of the terrors of the night, nor the arrow that flies in the day.
Do not dread the disease that stalks in darkness, nor the disaster that strikes at midday.
Though a thousand fall at your side, though ten thousand are dying around you, these evils will not touch you.
Just open your eyes, and see how the wicked are punished.
If you make the Lord your refuge, if you make the Most High your shelter,
no evil will conquer you; no plague will come near your home.
For he will order his angels to protect you wherever you go.
They will hold you up with their hands so you won’t even hurt your foot on a stone.
You will trample upon lions and cobras; you will crush fierce lions and serpents under your feet!
The Lord says, “I will rescue those who love me. I will protect those who trust in my name.
When they call on me, I will answer; I will be with them in trouble. I will rescue and honor them.
I will reward them with a long life and give them my salvation.”
Psalms 91:1-16 NLT