Making a Way in the Wilderness
See, I am doing a new thing! Now it springs up; do you not perceive it? I am making a way in the wilderness and streams in the wasteland.
Isaiah 43:19 NIV
Since the beginning of 2019, this verse has been popping up everywhere I look. I’ve been seeing it in books I read and in podcasts I listen to. Twice in one day this verse came up and I knew God was trying to tell me something.
I’ve always had this dream in my heart of writing, traveling, and being able to work from home and ever since my encounter with God four years ago, I learned that my dream was a vision from Him about His will for my life. I’ve been holding onto that promise for years while God has been leading me through the wilderness and on a journey of spiritual growth.
Throughout this time I have been feeling nudges from God, pushing me to write, which prompted me to start this blog, but life seemed to constantly get in the way. I’ve been waiting for my circumstances to change and believing that once everything lined up, I would be able to truly focus on writing.
During the last few years, our circumstances have been changing, but they seem to be going in the opposite direction. God led us to have another baby then to move to a new city, and now I’ve switched back to working full-time, all changes that kept me too busy to pursue this dream.
I’ve constantly been having this back and forth with God and often times I’ve been left feeling confused because I believed that these changes were all from God but they were also the same changes that were getting in the way of my ability to write, making me doubt whether I was truly called.
At the start of this year, I felt God telling me that my wilderness season was about to end, yet at the same time it seemed He had led me deeper into the wilderness and further away from my promise. But when that verse from Isaiah kept coming up I knew there was something I was missing.
The Lord showed me that He is making a way in the wilderness, not my abilities nor my circumstances. He wanted me to see that my circumstances and my abilities don’t matter because He is the God of the impossible (see Luke 18:27, Matthew 19:26). And while God can do the impossible, He will not do it without my participation. My assignment is to be obedient to His call to write and He will take care of the rest. Then He lead me to read from the Book of Joshua.
Early in the morning Joshua and all the Israelites set out from Shittim and went to the Jordan, where they camped before crossing over. After three days the officers went throughout the camp, giving orders to the people: “When you see the ark of the covenant of the Lord your God, and the Levitical priests carrying it, you are to move out from your positions and follow it. Then you will know which way to go, since you have never been this way before. But keep a distance of about two thousand cubits between you and the ark; do not go near it.”
Joshua 3:1-4 NIV
I had read this passage from Joshua many times before and knew that God was telling me that just like the Israelites, I have been “camped” on the bank of the Jordan, waiting for His direction, but when I read it again, He showed me something I had not seen before.
The words “move out from your positions then you will know which way to go, since you have never been this way before” jumped out at me. I knew God was telling me to move but I didn’t understand how. Then I sensed God speak to my heart, “it’s time to move from your current position of doubt. ” He was telling me that it was time for me to see myself the way he sees me.
I have to see myself as a writer.
The “move” that needs to take place is not physical like I originally thought but it is mental, a change in perspective. It is time to mentally take possession of the promise by believing that I am a writer and that I have been called to write.
I have been “camped” at the Jordan waiting for direction, for circumstances to change, for God to move, making a way for me out of the wilderness, but what God showed me is that I need to “move out of my current position” first and follow His lead, “then I will know which way to go.”
The position that I am in is my current perspective.
It’s time for me to no longer see writing as a distant dream but to view it as my current reality.
It’s time to change my position by changing my perspective.
It’s time to go all in and take possession of the promise He has given me.